and I thought to myself, "Wow! This part was written for me!! Identical characteristics.....similiar experiences....What did you say his name was??" Haha
I memorised the script...I analysed....I practised....There was no way I was going to give a lacklustre performance.....
The day came...I went in, and gave a satisfactory performance......UNTIL I was asked to sing...
Sing? Ha! I get paid to sing! Chicken feet....... and then I opened my mouth....
Die!! Shit!!! Was it because I didn't do vocal warm-up exercises? Was it because I was unprepared (I wasn't told I had to sing)? Was it...?? All I know is...I didnt sing well at all!! I even went flat in parts... It was a disaster!! I don't think anyone in the right mind would pay me a single cent to hear me sing, if that was the way I normally sound....
I'm angry...and fed-up with myself.
Seriously, I don't mind it so much if I did my best and didn't get a role...because there was probably nothing else I could have done to change the director's/producer's mind. However, it does get to me when I don't get a role because I didn't perform as well as I'm capable of performing!!
So ya, I'm damn pissed with myself!
The verdict is not out yet!
I'm keeping my fingers crossed!
And if indeed, I did screw it up.....
I shall punish myself by not drinking Big Gulp for 5 days!! Err...3 days...Ok la, 2 days!!!
GGGrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....